the last voyages // 5. video. no filter (t-x is included due to filter-fail).

[tobecaprican]

I'm so frakking tired of this.

All of this hideous crashing and banging going on, the temperature fluctuations, the stupid ghosts, and when I finally get to sleep, it's one of those dreams again. What've you lot been doing for them, then? Anyone in the infirmary have anything to help with it?

A horse tranquiliser, maybe. An emergency stiff drink. Graduation, perhaps. I'll not be venturing out for anything frakking less, alright?

...thank you.



[ OOC: No, weird and distressing dreams (more than the usual kind) aren't an October symptom. Yet, anyway. But Baltar is making Assumptions that could stand correction. Tag-back also might be a bit later on but will get to them. ]

Comments

[yeahscience.livejournal.com]

You think bad dreams are part of what's going on around here? [He doesn't sound doubtful at all. Actually, he sounds like it's something he'd never considered, BUT IT MAKES PERFECT SENSE.]

[tobecaprican]

[ In turn, it literally did not occur to Gaius it would be anything else. And still does not. ]

Not enough for this place to be frakking with us while we're awake, oh no, has to do it while I'm trying to get some rest to keep up my strength for all this redeeming I'm doing.

[yeahscience.livejournal.com]

What kind of-- [But he cuts off and shakes his head, because if Gaius has to answer, he's going to have to answer, and the last thing he wants to talk about is what he sees when he closes his eyes.]

I mean... how bad is it?

[tobecaprican]

Every night, lately. Sometimes a break, where I just don't. It's the same thing but with differences, and it's not my subconscious, let me tell you.

Is it bad for you too?

[yeahscience.livejournal.com]

Yeah. Pretty bad, man. Way worse, lately. [A more rational Jesse would notice that his sleeping patterns also happened to coincide with certain other life changes... but this is not a rational Jesse.]

Do you... [He hesitates, glancing around. The last time he tried this, it ended badly, and Gaius isn't exactly a criminal mastermind. He bites his lip, thinking for a second, and then lowers his voice.]

[Private -- he's checking]

You didn't tell no one about that thing I hooked you up with, right? My friend Xena?

[ourlastbesthope.livejournal.com]

Hm. If that's something new, at least it's something most people have dealt with.

[tobecaprican]

Is it passing quickly for anyone, then? Or just going on and on like everything else? Starting to get to be every single night.

[ourlastbesthope.livejournal.com]

I don't know. I just know that nightmares are not a rare occurrence here.

[tobecaprican]

No-- [ Sigh. ]

It's not just a nightmare. It's too real and, well. It isn't frightening. It just makes me question whether I'm even asleep. It isn't normal.

Private

[ourlastbesthope.livejournal.com]

Will you tell me what happens?

[Private]

[terminatefate]

Try eleven years of it.

[Private]

[tobecaprican]

[ Half-awake, stressed out Gaius is a Gaius with poor judgment. ]

Well some of us aren't meant to be locked up in a loony bin, so forgive me if I'm trying to find a solution to the problem.

...fr--

I didn't mean anything by that.

Re: [Private]

[terminatefate]

Gaius. What the fuck.

[Private]

[tobecaprican]

I know.



Sorry.

Re: [Private]

[terminatefate]

Thanks for sharing. [the frown is so very there] Tell me your dream, then. I've been dealing with this shit for years, maybe I can...fucking help or something.

And next time, just tell me. I'm not about to take a 9mm to your face or anything.

Jesus fuck, Gaius.

Private.

[toldastory]

What sort of bad dreams?

Private.

[tobecaprican]

Vivid ones. They might as well be real life for all that I can feel them, remember them. Have you anything for dreamless sleeping?

I'd expect you'd start having them on hand. In emergencies.

Private.

[toldastory]

We do, but it's not something to give out lightly, Gaius. It's only a stopgap measure, and you should know it's magical based. It will work, though.

How long has it been since you've been sleeping?

Private.

[tobecaprican]

Long enough to turn on my journal and yell at the network.

Does it have side effects?

Private.

[toldastory]

There's the concern of dependency if it goes on for too long, but that's one of the reasons that we don't let people have it more than a few nights.

Other than that, no one has experienced anything other than twelve uninterrupted hours of sleep.

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[metallonkardia.livejournal.com]

Chill the fuck out.

voice | private;

[tobecaprican]

[Have an only mildly weepy Gaius voice. ] Right, thank you, that's so helpful, but I'd thought of that one.

voice | private;

[metallonkardia.livejournal.com]

Does being wound up help?

voice | private;

[tobecaprican]

No, but there's no end in sight, is there?

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[metallonkardia.livejournal.com]

Yes there is.